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First outing actually camping in Caroline the camper. A couple of teething issues, defo needs new bed foam and seat covers. Ability to have a cooker outside important too then all will be good. Not sure camping is for me though, feel cramped, sometimes cold and missing mod cons. I'm a hotel person, draught beer, food made to order and a room you can walk around naked in. This site we're at has electric and slow broadband so that's a good thing. The TV thingy I brought is pants, won't switch on or owt. I'll have to get a new one when I get home, being without the telly box is a good thing though, right? Nah..  So it's Sunday, no Churches near by so no worship today. Back home Monday and back to normality, work and all. So that's an entry from the camper, not sure how many more there will be... 

Not sleeping well, that's not this place that's just me right now. Up every hour then struggling to get back. Have had an easy day though. It's been really quite cool spending time with Kay. She's been paranoid that this retreat isn't what I wanted or that I'll even like it. Yes, the services I can't follow, the meal times are different but it's all about experiencing this. The monks are welcoming and very cool, set in there ways but they have to be. I've enjoyed the day it's been easy with no pressure or time constraints to anything. Met some nice guys from the continent and sat down to eat with them. All this hospitality freely given. Life at the Abbey is certainly different to life outside, quiet contemplation is the order of the day, or just chatting small talk. Pigs in the field are cool too... All named now, porky, KVE, Pork Crunch and Bacon. You see the pattern right? So, will I come back. Probably not, will I retreat again? Don't know...

I lay in the silence, fireworks in the distance I can hear, must be celebrating the holidays. How do I feel? A little low, not sure why. I think I'm missing out on life being hear in the monastery. Fear of the unknown I suppose. Breakfast tomorrow at 7:30, no talking, what should I do, where should I go. I really don't know what to say. Got room yuk, that's that feeling that once you're in bed you don't wanna move. It smells slightly of hair grease and sweat. The sheets are clean though. The room is clean and quite big with it. Very basic, no internet! Grr. Don't know about this retreat thing, just wanna go out or go home. Not feeling it, been asked to wear trousers at the next service. Don't know why these dress codes still exist. The service was sung in Latin, I could follow using the book in English. There was all sorts of bowing, sitting, standing and all that. I know when the Gospel is proclaimed we stand, that's before Jesus' words. We stand be...

Monday, this is the last week of being off work. I feel very positive that the operation has gone well. Need to exercise now in order to become that bit fitter. You know it makes sense to be fit and healthy. If my life is to be short then I'm not going to sit back and miss out. My boy JB needs me right now. I'm pondering what to do with myself for the next stage of my life. Continue to do the job I do now only better? Also improve my skill-set and what I can offer the job market and employer.. There are also thoughts returning that I need to setup in business. A little place I call Fanny Bullocks is in mind, Pork sandwiches and great coffee :-) Let's see where these thoughts take me … In Jesus name I pray he guides me and gives me the opportunity to fulfil my life vision and do what's right in his eyes. Amen New Hair Doo ;-)

An old Draft I found, thought I'd publish it The Hypermobility Syndrome Association :: View topic - Cardio Ablation : "I am on a waiting list to get a cardio ablation because of my palpitations, arhythmias and svt's. Palpitations are when you can feel your heart beat but at unexpected times (you would expect to feel it after excersising but not while resting) Arhythmias are often descibed as 'whomps' and 'flutters' I would say that the whomps kinda feel like your heart has just hiccuped, and the flutters are in usually situated above the heart in the middle, slightly below that collar bones. SVT's is when your heart beats extremely fast and hard, (mine usually averages at 216bpm) The believed cause of this is that because of the HMS, I have an area with extra heart muscle fibres which confuses the pacemaker of the heart causing all of the above problems. The surgery involves going into the heart via an angioplasty thing (through a vein in the gro...

Been off work a week now. Had a Cardio Ablation last Wednesday, 2 July at the Wellington in St Johns, London. Usual recovery time is a week or so of rest, but to really take the opportunity to rest up properly and get well I've took a further couple of weeks off. Today I've started by doing a few chores, fixed the kitchen draw and rebuilt my computer. That's where I'm writing this from; my new shiny HP. Over the next few days I intend to rest up some more and do some of the tasks on Caroline. I've nearly got the curtains finished and first cupboard built. I'll have that installed and covered by tonight ready to build the bed tomorrow. Wednesday I'll try get the bedding done and the electrics ready before Thursday doing the cab. Friday I'll try get the Fridge and Cooker installed. This way we'll be ready for an adventure if I dare Next week.. That'll do for now I'm off to sit for a while and contemplate getting better. I've been talkin...

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Waiting in the airport for our flight. We're very early, the car is returned and bags are checked. Goodbye Austria. Had a great time with the family, seen lots and done enough to keep us happy. I think we'll have fond memories of Austria, the mountains and the places. Hills are alive with the sound of music and all that. Woke today feeling crook, my heart is not right and I'm not in a good place. When I get back to Berkshire it may be time to get to the Hospital. Driving here I felt really strange, dizzy sick, chest palpitations, and a feeling of my heart bouncing. It's not right, it needs some attention fairly quickly I think. I asked God to get me home with the family, we, they don't need any hassle with me going down in another country. Lord thank you for our holiday and time away. Thank you for my family, thank you for the food, the weather and great experience. In Jesus name. 9° Mostly Cloudy Fürstenweg, Innsbruck, Tyrol, Austria

Last full day spent chilling out with Joshua and Wifey. Took a short drive up the mountain then returned back to Imst. Had tea on our last night at a restaurant called Oilers. An American themed restaurant, you enter through a Winnebago into the bar area. This place is quite cool, there are propellers from planes and pistons as light fittings, cock pot controls and all sorts. It's American diner done well. Josh and I both had steak, very nice it was too . Austria has been good to us during our visit. A peaceful place with lovely people. I hope to return to do some mountain biking at some point and a run down the Imst coaster. Happy days, last day tomorrow and home, I feel the hospital calling. 47.2438° N, 10.7238° E

A great day up here on the hill. JB found a stick and got told off by a German saying its for his dog :-) derr its a stick! That aside though I've enjoyed a the day with Wifey and Joshua, saw some of the zoo and a lot of the mountain. Great time in Austria … Very chilled with no pressure added by any of us … 47.2437° N, 10.7238° E

Innsbruck. Trip up the mountain on the cable car. Some good views from here, I'll post a few .. 47.3022° N, 11.3791° E

Let me introduce Dave .. My Alpine specimen. He'll grow to be a big lad I'm sure :-) 15° Mostly Cloudy Hoch-Imst 16, Hochimst, Tyrol, Austria

Sunday.. Swimming at Austria water park, JB had a try of the only double loop water slide in the world. I didn't have a go on it though, shame really. My heart rate is way too high, needs some attention when I get back to Britain. The slightest amount of exercise makes my heart beat rapid and gives me a feeling of real fatigue. Great day though, a lazy start then the drive to the pool, time for a beer now I'm back at the apartment. Chill time whilst overlooking the mountains …

Walk after tea down the mountain to the ravine … JB worried I'd throw him in, can't think why that would be :-) 13° Mostly Cloudy Pfadfinderhütte, Imst, Stadt, Tyrol, Austria

Salzberg old town and Market area. Think the word would be cosmopolitan, rich foods and coffee shops. Red Bull shop, gives you wings, or at least your money seems to fly if you shop in there. The towns clean and very beautiful, the architecture is well thought out and the the place is maintained to the highest standard. Apart from all that, the food.. The food, cheeses and smoked meat. Nice :-) Saw the Cathedral and what an amazing place that is, I always end up asking myself questions though. Jesus was a man who had nothing and travelled with nothing because he knew his father would provide for him. When he healed the sick and took care of the poor did he envision these buildings built in his memory filled with splendour that cost so much in time and money to maintain? Or did he see the good news as not needing any of this? There was an effigy hanging today of the crucified Jesus inside the Cathedral. If you imagine the tomb he lay in when dead, a cave carved from the rock. Th...

Stopped in Salzburg last night in a very, we'll err old looking seventies place. Had Chinese food for tea and visited the shopping centre. JBs happy he got his headphones for his XBox. Enjoying seeing Austria. Today is the day to go see the old city and get a souvenir Photo… Hotel Lilien… 7° Mostly Sunny Einödweg 9, Kaprun, Salzburg, Austria

Alpine Coaster Done! Kaprun mountain coaster. Maisflitzer, think Joshua is addicted. Quite easy though it's great fun .. 47.2742° N, 12.7569° E

Happy Birthday Joshua. He woke up thirteen years old, he's having a shower for his Birthday. There's a first for everything I suppose. I'm off to Kaprun today near Salzberg, going to find the mountain coaster. Happy days . 7° Mostly Cloudy Hoch-Imst 22–24, Hochimst, Tyrol, Austria

A short walk down the mountain. Found this stream taking the water from the glacier. Tried a taste and must say it's very nice. One problem on having is my heart, it's really good. Too fast, palpitations, breathless you name it, my symptoms are as always, fatigue with all of the above. Time to go cook tea. Bratwurst and Pasta followed by Orange Chocolate cake. 16° Mostly Cloudy Pfadfinderhütte, Imst, Stadt, Tyrol, Austria

Day 2. Lazy day, breakfast and chillin watching you tube. Of course TV is in German. Visit to town under way .. Found a small cafe for a cheap lunch, told JB we're not going McDonald's.. Just burger but finding the language barrier a little annoying. Not the locals but my own ignorance. Feel disappointed in myself that I know no German. Got a couple of translators on my phone so will use them to help eh! I'm gonna learn a language I think. When I'm home, may learn some German. Spot more shopping done too. It's still legal to smoke pretty much everywhere in Austria. There are smoking shops to buy your cigarettes and you can have a smoke whilst in there too. Nice little village we've just been too, it's very quiet down there. You can buy those traditional shorts the wood choppers wear. I was thinking I may buy some, leather shorts may be a good look for me. JB is in an almighty mood with me again. He's always got some sort of problem with me lately. ...

So day one. Sat had a beer and had some sleep. Woke up briefly to watch home alone with Joshua, he can't get any proper TV. Out and about tomorrow, go and see where we are, a town called Imst. The coaster we came for is closed, but we've found one in Salzberg to try later in the week. Looking forward to that, there's swimming and touring to do too. Saw a restaurant called oilers on the way here on the B171, some American themed place. Will give that a try too :-) Toll roads on the journey I avoided with TomTom. Will use those I think for a faster journey tomorrow. First impressions though, very nice. I like Austria, it's a beautiful country. Let's if my thoughts change through the week. God is here too, you can see him in the landscape and can hear him in the silence … It's dark now, so very dark and quiet, not had silence like this for such long time . Feeling happy, God Bless. 47.2206° N, 11.1154° E

Arrived at the Apartment, very nice I must say. Just cooking a pizza and having some bread and cooked meat. All foreign of course… The view from the apartment is in the picture, as you'll see very nice. The drive up the mountain was very cool couldn't get out of second gear. Gotta say though, I don't like or enjoy driving on the wrong side, it's just not what I'm used to. Time to sit now with a beer and enjoy the view. Some sleep to catch up on now! 47.2992° N, 10.1119° E

 Passport control then get the car. 47.2577° N, 11.3502° E

Arrived at the Travel Lodge, nearly ready for sleeps then the trip to Austria tomorrow. Just learned that data is 45p per meg. Wow expensive :-/.. Wine o clock, JB about to sleep, early start tomorrow then flight. First time abroad with the wife and kiddy in over 10 years … I'll try to check in but no promises … Looking forward to the the drive on the wrong side of the road, not! 10° Mostly Clear Perimeter Road North, Horley, England, United Kingdom

So two or three days knowing I'm in AF, if I pushed it any more then I'm risking heart damage again. I need to get a grip on this. Last year i had three cardio versions that lead me to have an ablation on October. After a few months healing my heart function and rhythm stayed solid. Can't work out why it's changed today though. Went in for an Echo, standard procedure but that quickly showed my hearts not doing well. Stayed back and waited for a doctor to come through to confirm I could have the procedure to put it right. Another day on the hospital, been put under for the shock came out feeling tired but I think the hearts back. No pulpitations or unsteady heart. That's it, time again to Persue a Heart fix. I don't wanna go on like this, I may have to and live with what God has given me. I do know I'm not supposed to give up. He doesn't want me right now. I wish I knew what I'm supposed to do, these are warnings for some reason. Am I supposed to stop...

So two or three days knowing I'm in AF, if I pushed it any more then I'm risking heart damage again. I need to get a grip on this. Last year i had three cardio versions that lead me to have an ablation on October. After a few months healing my heart function and rhythm stayed solid. Can't work out why it's changed today though. Went in for an Echo, standard procedure but that quickly showed my hearts not doing well. Stayed back and waited for a doctor to come through to confirm I could have the procedure to put it right. Another day on the hospital, been put under for the shock came out feeling tired but I think the hearts back. No pulpitations or unsteady heart. That's it, time again to Persue a Heart fix. I don't wanna go on like this, I may have to and live with what God has given me. I do know I'm not supposed to give up. He doesn't want me right now. I wish I knew what I'm supposed to do, these are warnings for some reason. Am I supposed to stop...